I never made any announcement nor remind anyone about my birthday. I just simply wanted to feel what it would be like when anything about my person will not be really given attention to or focused on. At first I felt strange. Yet, I guess i wanted to tame myself more and be away from "limelight". The grace to be silent and insignificant was what I remember I asked from God before my birthday.
My family members knew about it already so I never made any extra effort for that. And of course they remember me ...always. And a friend priest - Fr. Roger Gabac, SSJV sent his private message at facebook.
Before I loved so much the attention. Sssshhh wait... I still like it now but not really giving it much attention so that I would forget simplicity and "insignificance".
I appreciate so much "silence". It gives me more time to forming and reforming how I was shaped by my ego from the previous years. I loved being acknowledged with my achievements. Yet, I love it even better when others will not give me importance or treat me kindly because of my achievements. I know that well in my heart.
Now for my birthday - January 8, 2015, I woke up with the feeling that it was special for me whispering prayers of thanksgiving before God and prepared breakfast. When my husband woke up, he gave me the warmest hug and kiss (hmmm I love it so much being wrapped in his arms).
He wanted us to have a dinner date with our daughter but I suggested that we will just buy food and have it at home shared with my neighbor's sister's family. When I arrived at school, nobody knew about it so I kept my silence and went ahead with preparing and teaching my students ( I always have fun with my students).
At lunch time, I had a date at mass with the Lord. That was the highlight of my day, celebrating it in prayer to God with glitters of thanksgiving. Hmmm now the question is "did ask for a gift?". I did. I told Him about it the day before my birthday. Another question..."do I have enough faith to believe that He will grant it?". Hmmmm that is one of the most difficult part. I need God's grace to strengthen my faith so that I will just simply believe and let go. Hmmm my last question..."what if what I asked for is not really for me?"....My answer..."It will never stop my friendship with God:-)"
The night simply ended with the regular walking with my daughter and husband. I love the sound of my daughter's giggles when she's brought out of the house. ( I was just worried when we realized that my daughter was no longer wearing one shoe and we had to look for it before we went back to our house.) The excitement with just being us...rather the excitement of having both of them is the greatest birthday gift of all.
Thank you God. Thank you God for another year of my life. Thank you God for your generosity, for your blessings, abundance, patience ....hmmm etcetera hehehehe. I love you sooooo much...:-) ...Hmmm i get that ...you made me feel that first...:-0
