And I Cry ..."For God's Sake..."

Let me tell you a story of a fetus. One day he suddenly woke up so alive and traversed a certain path leading to a safe, secure and enclosed well provided space. When he got there, he felt his small world so beautiful. He felt like dancing and singing the whole time.

One, two months, three months...and soon he started to feel the discomfort. He heard voices from the outside. He thought that what he had was all he got but he felt that there was more beyond his space. And so he started to long to be out to know where and who own the voices. But as his excitement grew he felt that his small world shook from time to time. Voices shook him too and he was starting to feel intense movements from the outside. Then he asked the following questions : "What happened? I feel so weak? Everytime they talk i feel that i am loosing my energy? Where am I? What am I into? Who sent me here?"

Until that day when some black liquid enveloped him.. and choked him ...and tore him to pieces. One innocent soul, excited to be out to join the world of ours suddenly lost the opportunity of a life that he so deserve and may enjoy despite life's challenges (i am not such a good story teller...pareha ani...hahay)

That story above was what was running in my mind when "jane", the one that washes my clothes every weekend related how she connived with a couple having extra marital relations decided yesterday to abort their baby. I invited jane for breakfast before she could start washing my clothes. And what i thought to be a simple breakfast turned out to be an ohhhhhhhh so gross conversation of her relating what she did to "help" the couple.

If you want to know how it went, I will tell you the details here.

The guy was already engaged and was scheduled to get married last February,2011. The wedding pushed through. After which his wife went back to work abroad. Unknown to his wife, he had an "extra relations" with another woman (prior to their wedding)that got pregnant. In his attempt to polish everything and appear clean to his wife, he asked for assistance from "jane" for the abortion process...

And the effect to me? It broke and tore my heart to pieces. I was shocked how in the world they could do such a thing and how could jane allow that to happen when and in fact she is a member of a Catholic organization that is obviously pro-life.

I wanted to be angry but I cannot drive jane away (for sure God brought Jane to me to be helped and I was the person He chose to assist her). I did not want to frighten her with my anger instead this words came out from my mouth "I know God is a merciful God...just go to confession the soonest. The priest can best deal with you" (jane almost did that to her 2 beautiful kids).

I remember reading kuya lando's post on the abortionist doctor that got converted. Praise be to God who brings hope to a man living in darkness...

Lastly, I know OUR GOD IS A MERCIFUL GOD. I know He understands but we are all held accountable to all our actions here on earth. We need to face Him clean and unblemished. We do what's right, proper and honorable in God's eyes. We need to protect life not to stop it.

And now I need to shout at the top of my voice "A fetus is helpless...for God's sake... Why would anyone do such a thing?"(now i am angry...huhuhuhuhuhu).

PS : My Letter to the Fetus

I know your are somewhere else safe. I know you had the most of pain when you were in the womb. I wanted to say... you deserve to rest from your experience of pain. But more than anything, you deserve to live and have the life that perhaps you may not really enjoy because your parents may not be able to give you the best of care. But who knows you would be able to surpass the challenge of having such kind of parents.

But you know what i told jane this morning? "I wish you let him/ her live so that you would have given him / her to me...You know what baby? i take care of lots of dogs even neighbors'...i feed them even if they are not mine... I know i could not resist taking care of you and give you the best ...more than my gestures for dogs...Rest now and say "hi" to chacha (whahahahhaha magkita na sila ako puppy) for me. I wish i had the chance to see you...Even if you did not see me...I love you and I am in agony loosing you that way...May you forgive your parents. We both pray for them...

With my love,

Dang

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Perhaps I will discuss extramarital relations later...and one sin leads to another...yikes...jerious:-)