THE EGO

grabbed from http://www.dotcrush.com/what-is-an-ego/

For days now I have not written any blog. I simply muse myself with activities such as devouring a book, meditation, food, Church, play with my pet, visit my sister's house and eat my meal there, surf the net, watched videos on the computer, etc. In simple terms, i tried to detach myself from the regulars and my ordinary days - Just i and myself.

When I started to realize that words have not come out when i started to "scribble" a little through my computer, I decided to stop. My mind was so crapped with so many things and I knew then that I had to pullover.

What was so significant during my break was the small treasure that I found that gave that big spark in my current state. This i found from the book I just read entitled the Power of Intention by Dr. Wayne Dyer. Let me quote some major points.

It says ego is made of six primary ingredients that account for how we experience in ourselves as disconnected :

1. I am what I have. My possessions define me.
2. I am what I do. My achievements define me.
3. I am what others think of me. My reputation defines me
4. I am separate from everyone. My body defines me as alone.
5. I am separate from all that is missing in my life. My life space is disconnected from my desires
6. I am separate from God. My life depends on God's assessment of my worthiness

I feel that from the enumerated ingredients above, I have struggled in a tug-of-war trying so hard not to be ruled by the ego in my life.

The ego works around - I, Me, and Myself state. And so if I would say "i have this and that, i achieved this or that, and the stories revolved around myself. And we try to shun others away by not listening to them. Or not to put them first.

Or we talk as if the world is us and us alone. When we compete and put others aside and we forget that " we are all connected to each other in in a circle, in a hoop that never ends" (Pocahontas, the movie).

When we say that i can't have this because, i am a sinner or that i don't deserve to have a better life or to have God in my life. When someone asks us why the personality we have.

When we say "it's embarrassing, shameful, when we hide the truth of ourselves is an obvious protection and wrapping we have ruled by the ego. There is nothing wrong when people see us to have those stuffs we have or what we have achieved but when they become attached or we become attached to it / them, we lose sight of the real us.

In another book of Dr. Dyer, Manifest Your Destiny, he stated DO NOT COMPLAIN, DO NOT EXPLAIN. He printed this and put this on his wall to remind himself always. (This same line, I posted in one of my shirts). Actually, it is still the work of the ego to keep on complaining and explaining about things and us. A very tiring pursuit of the ego trying to make itself appear clean and powerful in the eyes of others ( big sigh!!!!!).

I have been into a situation when surround by friends i felt like being cross examined. Questions were thrown at me in all directions. I felt trapped and pressured to answer all their questions. When I recalled back home my answers and how I answered them created an inner disturbance and the "knowing" eye was there telling me " you could have said this" or "that was not the truth", etc. To shut her up, I would reason out in my mind many things to defend my statements but yet, i felt it did not work out well. It was like a battle of words inside that I got tired with it.

You know what? I don't want to be disconnected from my SOURCE ...GOD up there ...down here in my heart where the TRUTH was markedly written in bold and bright. If I would have difficulty accessing my Source because of the strength and air of my ego trying to weaken my ties with Him then I must shift gears.

Perhaps we can try this together? If we go up higher our ego, we can attract together our heart's greatest desires. I hope this makes sense to you:-)



Note :

- Here is a simple test in checking and assessing yourself if ego is strongly at work with you ...if anyone gives you negative comment/s and you feel the pang of pain with such comment.. and you defend yourself and your side strongly and as much as you can ...then you can say EGO IS STRONGLY AT WORK...
- What you can do? Allow people TO BE through their comments and DETACH YOURSELF... HOLD YOURSELF AND YOUR IMPULSE ehhehe... Do not be so attached with it :-)

Have a happy life everyone..:-) Let us all journey together ...Amen:-)