It has been almost two weeks since I
practically stopped working from my full time job as Training Officer in a
company. It was not an easy exit though
but I had to as agreed upon (between me
and my husband). My resignation was
supposed to be effective on May 31, but I was requested by the top management to
extend by the end of June.
But then
again, I could no longer hold myself over some situations (hehe) that I had to
request for my doctor’s intervention regarding this matter (good thing
my doctor understood me full well) and I gloriously got my full term’s rest…that
would mean, until I deliver my baby (but that doesn’t mean going back to my previous
company).
What’s for me at this time? Being alone in the house lately and having a
lot of time to figure out how things would be at my end, gives me the most of freedom to explore where
I am. I tried looking back and counted my
blessings of the past 4 years that I was out in the academe (which I thought at
first I would regret for the rest of my life :-)
).
Blessings such as :
1.
Went to US twice, met people (different kinds
of people) and got so exposed with a of things
2.
Worked in the corporate twice
3.
Had the opportunity to lead at least
for the majority of the four years ( at last I was able to conquer my fear in
leading)
4.
Had the privilege of being assisted
by two great Jesuit priests (Fr. Norlan
and Fr. Frank) who opened my doors to my
life’s passion (writing)
5.
Opened this blog site as my self
expressions and was able to extend myself at least and in the little wisdom I gathered
from experience to friends and even to beautiful guests from throughout the
world that hop into my blog site (thanks so much to all of you…I feel so honored
and humbled at such gesture and initiative of your visits).
6.
Started an Advocacy called Joyfully Hopeful supported by a Jesuit priest
Fr. Frank now shared between me and my husband through the shirts and other
products (though this one has not really moved forward yet at this time yet…I can
see its future:-) )
7.
Explored and started to venture into
business
8.
Got married last year (at last hahahahah) despite the many
challenges
9.
Now nearing my 7th month
of pregnancy ( a little girl due by September)
10. Miracle
of all miracles, I have started compiling some of my most read blogs – from the
funniest to ….what would you say…the most heart breaking moments of my journey
and put it into a book (actually I did
not really think of these until some readers have noticed its impact and have
started “tempting” me to publish them:-) ….this one keeps me really
"crazy" on top of my keyboard lately putting things together plus another book
on career taken from my journey with different employers).
11. I have intruded lives two probable editors …you see I have the tendency to
overwrite. I need that doze of
downsizing with words. I really want it
sound conversational and with personal touch’
12. It
is by grace that I do not worry if people will buy it or not. I could worry less of that. You see, when you get to receive an
invitation to write from the heavens (I hope I listened right hehehe), you
could worry less or not worry at all about people buying it. I consider it already a grace to be able to
share myself:-) )…
I just don’t
want to live a life with regret in the
future carrying the thoughts “what if I published
it? What if I had done this…so many what
ifs”…I don’t want or need that anymore (and I could worry less about what
people would think of it”. That thing is
…I just want to go crazy with letting it out and have fun that my books are out
there… with the thought that “at least
there may be one soul today that may be touched…that is heaven for me already”… there is no hurry at all…(life is just too
beautiful to rush right? :-)
13. A
confession though… I am not really
totally unemployed, as I was taken by a Medical laboratory as Psychologist
working part time so I need not be in the office unless special
cases would require my presence. All
other things such as test administrations are done by a Psychometrician and I love the freedom that
this job is giving me.
14. Now a wife and soon – to – be mom, I have a husband that is so “obsessed” with
taking good care of “us” - I and the little girl in my tummy. I just feel sometimes like having a bodyguard
keeping watch with what I eat, vitamins that I take in and the daily routine
walk that we do take together (I mean the three of us hehehe).
Well
did I mention already a negotiation that took place between me and my
husband? At least with his support, he
promised that I could get back on course including my Post graduate studies. But even then, I am very open to whatever
movements and direction that the decision I made would take me.
I feel confident of the promise that I took before God as to taking care
of my family ....balancing it with career… I just want our beautiful gift – little girl
(hopefully by the name of Maria Mikaela) be taken cared of in the next 3 months
in my womb and have her come out by September.
Huwwwooooosh…I
need that doooze of breath and strength to push hahahhaha …God is with us:-)
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