Allow me to be romantic today. It is not that I woke up with the twinkling of stars in my eyes. I did not come from sleep. I always fall asleep...hahahaha just joking. I feel so wide awake realizing that being and staying in love is something that we create and re-create each day like that of an artist that does his craft in the eyes that see beyond the physical dimension.
Since the day I and my husband tied the knot in marriage, I and him have seen so many things about us that we didn't expect we had such as the intensity of our temper and yet the effort to hold it for the sake of not really hurting each other that much.
I had my moments of those tempting and challenging thoughts such as the question "why did i marry this man?" and " i might as well decide to separate with him", etc. Ohh the last one made me goose skinned and hit me to the bones. It always made me go back to the time when we were so in love and that were tested in our relationship several times over and my husband ...my boyfriend then never gave up at least ones. He stood still with the fight for both us. It was only I that got weakened but still he held me up to stay on his side.
Being in love and staying in love is the most challenging part with married couples. In the house you don't fake yourself in front of your husband or wife. You are so you regardless of what the other person thinks.
I felt that with the worst in us both, we were not pleased at all. It even shocked me to realize the worst in me. But as I decide to give us both chances at loving, I realize I was giving the same to myself.
I feel so radiant and beautiful in front of my husband. You know why? He made me feel that. He always had those cute surprises such as giving me that wonderful smile in the morning with his hug that says "you are my beautiful wife and thank you for loving me". Yes I read that everytime he does that.
Let me share with you his latest surprise. He went to the mall one night and came back with his announcement " i have a gift for my wife..." And he added straight talking to me "it will simplify and organize your life... and it suits your lifestyle". That one made me almost leaped and dance. Yet, i was stopped when he said he would give it only when our daughter was asleep. Still with excitement I insisted that he would give it with our daughter as witness...hehe cute. And it was such a grand introduction for a ...sling bag. He added, "I have one to for myself ...much bigger than yours..." And I thought..."cute...we're like twins...hahaha i mean lovebirds with uniform sling bags...walking hand in hand".
I saw how happy he was. I was so happy and thanked him for such a surprise. But honestly, I was thinking of the pretty hand bag that I wanted so much to buy...which i thought if he just told me that he'd buy one I would have recommended that one. Hmmm....selfish meeeehhh...
But Oh...i love my husband. I love his little, simple, cute ways of expressing himself to us, his temper, grouchiness, patience, and all. I learned a lot journeying with him and his openness discussing things with me and growing with me.
At times, I would hear him say "THANK YOU" without any words after that but an embrace for me and our little girl. When he starts to grouch, we had an agreement that we would remind each other so that's what I did and he would slowly pick up.
I love Michael...my dear husband. The "cloud 9 feeling" infatuation defined as love when we were younger turned out to be a decision to be and just stay in love ...to stick through and with each other no matter what.
We did not marry long enough to say that we had all the learnings to wrap in one package but i would say we are such a perfect pair blessed and watered by prayers that we say together as a family.
Thank you God:-)
PS: Our theme song...which i always sing and dance with our daughter..."Kung tayo'y matanda na...sana'y 'di tayo magbago...kailan man ....nasaan man...ikaw ang pangarap ko...ang nakalipas ay ibabalik natin wowowo"... now i am starting to feel like a howling dog nyahahhahahahah
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